Once

I constantly wonder why exactly I can't stop thinking about you, and I think I know why.

Although we had our bad moments, we also had great moments. We were so kind to one another and it was in the beginning where we made sure that we didn't say anything that could even potentially hurt each other.
Every touch was so gentle. Every kiss was taken moment by moment. We made sure we didn't breathe the wrong way because we didn't want to make each other believe we were upset.
We were so happy.
We had each other, but to us it was everything.
Nobody from the outside could tear us apart but what we didn't realize was that in the end we brought ourselves apart. 

We keep pointing fingers at each other but we just need to admit that it's both our fault.
I keep thinking about you because deep down I feel like we will fix things.

Without you, I feel lost. 
I really feel like I don't know where I'm going.
I know you feel the same. I saw it in your eyes that night.
I know you saw it in mine too.

I thought you were done with me because you had said that you couldn't just drop her to get back with me. I couldn't think straight that night and I really just needed you to give me honest answers.
I needed to know how you felt.
But you let it slide.
Kept it in your head hoping that you could tell me next time.
But now there is no next time because I screwed that up.

I know we can both apologize for the way we've acted and I know we can both accept the apologies. We want each other just as bad, and we miss each other just as bad.

I know you crave my scent just as much as I crave yours.

The way she caresses your face is not the way I caressed yours, and I know you miss that.
I wish I could smother you with kisses like I used to and see you smile like you used to.
I adored those wrinkles on the corners of your eyes.

But none of this can happen if we don't forgive each other. You're just as wrong as I am and we both need to accept it and move forward.
Together.